Magic in the Memory

Magic is everywhere, all around you.  It's in the sound of the wind blowing through the trees on a summer's day. It's in the things you can touch, smell and feel around you.
Where is your magic place.
The place that blurs the edges of reality and turns it to whatever you imagination can conjure.
Lately for me the magic has been in the music.  I listen to the music I grew up with, Fleetwood Mac, Led Zeppelin, Crosby, Stills, Nash, music from the 70's.  Even though 64 summers have come and gone for me, I hear this music and I am there again, 20 some years young and I can feel what I felt then.  I see the trends today called boho or gypsy and that takes me back to the same place as the music.  This is how I dressed but it was called hippie then.  Whatever the name I have always loved that look and I still love it today.  Its free and wild and different and that's what I have always been. Never one to follow the rules and even my home has its own style.
I was listening to the Led Zeppelin song "Going to California" the other day and it brought back feeling and memories so strong I wrote the following...

Words float through my mind and whisper  remember, remember

music tickles my memory and brings back days of sunshine and nights of forever
golden child living in a time with change that came with the rising of the sun
Smiles and love in the eyes that met yours, words floated like smoke, not really there. 

Gods of that time sang for our pleasure, bringing new meaning that life is forever

Long flowing hair touched your pillow and flew in the wind with flowers and songs that are etched In time

Remember. Remember
The hair is still long and music still brings pleasure, the memories come back of nights of forever

A face in the mirror asks where have you gone, golden child of yesterday
My heart answers back I am here, and still  the same, time has taken the beauty of youth away
My mind of today of says yes to what I see and my heart  says it doesn’t matter. Be what you are

meant to be.  

 

Some gods of that time are still alive today and their mirror tells the same story
We are stardust, we are golden and ours hearts will always shine
So play the music that takes you back to peace,  love and a beautiful place in time


Hope the magic takes you to a good place.

MIA

Yes, I have been absent for quite a while and I suppose I have no excuse except I just didn't have much I wanted to say. To update on my life... good news and bad news.

Bad news first I guess so that's out of the way.  I have been on disability since last August. I started having trouble with my eye and the Dr's tried everything to save it but could not so I had my right eye removed last Nov 3.  I was lucky to have had no problems since I was diagnosed with ocular melanoma in early 2012, but my luck ran out I guess. The tumor in my eye started bleeding and they could not stop it.  It has been hard getting used to having one eye and everything you did so easily before is now a challenge, depth perception etc.  I got through it and because I am fiercely independent I was driving by December.  First just on city streets close to home and then the freeway with someone with me to tell me if the right lane was clear when I wanted to switch lanes.  Now I am confident and have learned how to watch where people are so I know when its clear to change lanes.
That was bad news part one.  In early December I started thinking about the eye tumor bleeding and I associated that with spreading those bad cells throughout my body so I requested a PET scan and they found a small tumor in my liver.  I was good they found it early and I have since gone through radiation and now will have treatments with a drug that teaches your  good cells to kill the cancer cells.  I am told it works 50% of the time so I plan on being in that good 50%.
So far I've had one treatment and its nowhere near as bad as chemo was, but I still have nausea occasionally and get tired sooner.  We shall see what happens.

Good news is for the most part I feel OK and am able to work in the garden sometimes and yesterday I adopted a new kitty from the Humane society.  He is the cutest little guy, all black with big yellow eyes.  A year old and came from a hoarding house that had more than 30 cats.  I guess the lady thought she was going something good, but having that many cats that were not fixed was a very irresponsible thing to me.  My little guy is thin, but very friendly and because he is used to being around other cats, is one of the reasons I chose him.  I already had two, Kissy and Isa.  Right now he is under the bed in my room and the other two know he's here, but wont have contact with him until I see he/they show interest from behind closed doors.  Kissy is used to sleeping with me every night so last night was hard to hear her sit outside the door and cry.  I ended up going out and sleeping on the couch in the den for a while. These kitties are very spoiled to say the least. He is not named yet as I need to be able to interact with him more to be able to name him.  I will post pictures as thing progress. 

The weather here in San Diego is so beautiful and the roses are blooming along with the wisteria.
I would love to plant new roses, but with this terrible drought I thought I better be content with the ones I have for now. 

Hope everyone is well and have a wonderful weekend.

Fall comes to San Diego

What a glorious morning.  The sun is shining and there is actually a chill in the morning air.  Ladies I think we have Fall in San Diego.  I have looked at pictures of pumpkins, Fall festivals in the country and leaves of reds and golds, but all in other states where they is a real Fall. While we will never have that type of Fall in California, this cool weather is highly anticipated, especially by me.

There are 18 days until Halloween and my house looks like Fall, at least on the inside. I love to decorate for Halloween and my moto is "too much is not enough".

Hope your October morning is lovely wherever you are.

Welcome October

I am getting in the mood for the season change and cant wait for the cool weather of fall.  I started my Halloween decorating yesterday and still have a long way to go.  I will post pics when I am finished.

Let's see what is happening here.  I still cant see out of my right eye and the Dr says my body is not absorbing the blood in my eye so it will have to be removed by surgery.  As much as I detest the thought of another surgery on my eye, it will be worth it if I can see out of that eye again. We take so much for granted until it's taken away.  Everything is a challenge and once again I am having another lesson in patience.  Still and all, for a self confessed control freak this continues to be hard for me to get used to so lets hope this surgery takes care of the problem permanently.

I will have surgery on 10/16 so I have 10 days to get my house in order.  I have decided to have a Halloween party to celebrate Halloween and the return of my sight.  Since I don't know what to expect in the way of recovery, I need to get as much done as possible now. So 10 days and counting.

I have been off work since 8/13 so I will have a big adjustment when I go back, hopefully on 11/3.
I could easily get used to not working, but that is not an option for a while yet.  So I am off today for a little Halloween shopping so I can finish the decorating and post the results.

Happy fall ladies....
Sherry

SUMMER'S LAST DANCE

We find ourselves coming into my favorite time of the year, Autumn or Fall.  When the colors turn to the warm shades of gold brown and orange and there is that crispness to the air that makes you want to sit by a warm fire.  Halloween is will be here before we know it and I am hoping the hot days of summer will recede until next year. As a child born in the last quarter of the year, I crave the cooler weather and cant wait to build my first fire of the season. In California the weather will remain hot for at least another month, maybe longer. So the first chance to put the blankets back on the bed and change to flannel sheets will not happen before the end of October at best.

I usually wait until October 1 to put up the fall decorations just because somehow pumpkins just dont go with 90 degree weather in my mind. Halloween is my most absolute favorite holiday and have always wished I was able to change birthdays with my brother who was born on Halloween. I think the trade would be even as I was born on Christmas day.

Another Fall adventure is always the Renaissance Faire which happens this year at the end of Sept.
I have several costumes that I have worn over the years and if I stay away from the Mexican food and pasta for a while I should be able to wear them.  Even at 63 years I still love to dress up. I know if Serena lived closer she would be right there with me playing and enjoying the day in forest of old oaks, in the company of pirates, fairies, gypsies, wenches and cunning folk. 

So ladies and gents, lets celebrate the turning of the wheel to the coming season of beautiful colors and magical days.  The falling leaves of gold, brown and red and the warmth of heath, home and family.

Sherry

Learning Patience the Hard Way

I have many good qualities, but sadly patience has never been one of them. Somewhere it has been decided that I acquire this virtue, or at least something passable.
 I was having trouble with my vision in eye with the melanoma and saw my Dr. last Wednesday to find out what is going on.  As it turns out a blood vessel was leaking a casing the vision problem.  So without warning they did a laser procedure on my eye that required my eye be blocked or completely anesthetized to avoid any movement during this procedure.  That translates to A SHOT IN THE EYE!!!!  Now I'm quite sure that shots are not at the top of anyone's favorite things, but on my list there is not a place low enough to put this experience.  The only good thing I can say is that I had no advance warning or I would have stressed over this for days. I HATE NEEDLES..can't even look at them. Anyway I got through the procedure and the shot was the worst part, and the black eye does nothing for me,  but for the last 5 days I've had no sight in that eye. The Dr. said it would come back slowly but to what degree he couldn't say.
This is where the patience part comes in.  Not having sight in both eyes completely messes up your depth perception and how you navigate.  Something as simple a pouring liquid into a glass requires thought and adjustment.  I have not even considered trying to drive and having that freedom taken away is hardest of all.  When I want to go I just go, not so right now.  I think tomorrow I will attempt to go back to work and see (HA HA) how that goes.  I cant get into too much trouble sitting at a desk.  I shall have to find substitutes for some of the expletives I have used in the past days...
Blogging and pinterest can eat of the better part of a day so I have not been bored and I have finished a couple of projects that have sat for far too long.
I cant wait for my sight to come back even if only in part.  A little is better than none.
I know Patience....

Sherry

GOOD NEWS

I think the Gods have smiled on me once again.  I got the news from my PET scan and nothing has changed since Jan, which is very good news. I feel like I should be planning something big to celebrate so I will have to give this some thought.

I know I am very very fortunate and I am ever so grateful to